Isn’t it Friday yet?!
October 8, 2009
It’s been a hectic week. On Tuesday Michaela and I went to see a flat, but we didn’t expect much because it was quite low rent and we had no idea where it was. Turns out it’s two minutes from a bus stop we can both use and we were extremely impressed with the flat itself. It’s huge. Lots of space, plenty of cupboard space, spacious kitchen, high ceilings and – my favourite part – a pantry! I was mentally adding all my baking ingredients to the shelves. It need a bit of a clean and there’s one or two little cracks around, also the carpets badly need changed but these are all things the landlord will do before anyone moves in apparently. The bedrooms are huge too and the living room and the larger bedroom have big bay windows. We fell in love, basically. Though there was a massive spider in the bath… I mean it was the size of a tennis ball, seriously. Shudder. The next night we went back to have another look at it, and it really is perfect. I tried calling up today about it but I couldn’t get the letting agent we needed to talk to, so I’ll try again tomorrow. If we get it, we can move in on November 1st. Just in time for Christmas!
So yes, I’m excited. I shouldn’t get my hopes up though, cos someone else might get it. Must be calm. But it’d be great… I could sleep in a little later in the morning too, because it’s closer to Glasgow than I am now. I could be home a full hour earlier than I normally get home! That’s a major plus.
Will keep you posted!
“Pink, it was love at first sight”
October 4, 2009
Love it!!
Have had a nice quiet cosy weekend, like the little old lady I am. Friday night Michaela and I went for burgers and mocktails (she was driving) and then discovered Urban Outfitters was having a lock in – open till 10pm with 20% off everything! So we got the very first item for our flat – a set of multi-coloured test tubes for shots. Important! And Michaela got an awesome red shirt. Then Toy Story in 3D! That was genius. That finished at about half twelve, and we went to a 24 hour Tesco cos strangely that’s what we felt like doing. But I got a black and white checked shirt and a red belt to go with it, photos to come cos I love it! Bargain too.
So Friday night was extremely wet and horrible outside so I figured I’d stay in all weekend and keep looking up flats etc. Probably sounds boring but it’s kinda all I’m interested in doing right now. I had the most vivid dream I’ve ever had about anyone on Friday night. So much that I couldn’t even drag myself out of bed until 11, and if you know me you’ll know I’m a morning person and I hate staying in bed that late. But that’s depressing. I’m not doing very well at sticking to those resolutions I guess.
Watching Gavin & Stacey, got a bit addicted to it recently! Loves Nessa 
Now I’m off for a hot chocolate, woohoo.
These are a few of my favourite things…
September 30, 2009
Favourite things about winter that is!
One thing I always loved was going to the library at night and taking home lots of new books. I don’t know why I associate it with winter more since I spent half my childhood at the library, but I guess I just loved it more in winter!
Next. Since it gets dark early, it’s usually dark when I leave work at 5.30pm. So when I leave work I walk to a further away bus stop, because that way I can walk by the Christmas lights in Glasgow. Also I like staying in town late to have a drink at Starbucks. Another thing I love about winter – the Starbucks red cup!
On that note, I also love Beanscene’s winter warmers. Mmm, orange hot chocolate! Also a hot chocolate with whipped cream and marshmallows at Costa. Yes I love coffee shops.
Mostly, unlike other people I like that it’s cold and dark in the mornings and at night. I like it being cold so I can wrap up warm (and drink hot chocolate!!) and I like the dark because… I just do. I like wrapping up warm in bed with a hot water bottle too… I really am a little old lady.
Flat hunting lots, me and Michaela have decided just to get somewhere as soon as we can. The quicker we move out the better! Keep your fingers crossed for me
Cheeky Tuesday in all its glory
September 29, 2009
First things first, I’m an Aries. And I don’t normally pay much attention to horoscopes, but yesterday I heard mine:
- I need to stop living in the past.
- I need to get rid of the bad things in my life
- I have to get a new style.
So, like I said, I never bother with horoscopes but this time I’m going to follow it, since it’s stuff I’d already been thinking of doing. The hard one is the first one. I find it hard to live in the present apparently! As for getting rid of the bad things, I’m already working on it. And the third, I’m sick of half the clothes I own once again.
Although, I have a new pair of pink converse and they’re so cute. £16.99 on Amazon! Hurrah!
Anyway, the living in the past thing… I have to stop thinking about a certain someone who isn’t in my life anymore, and probably won’t ever come back. I don’t need a boyfriend anyway (that’s the last thing I need right now I guess).
I had a lot of stuff to write but to be honest I’m too tired… work sucks. On the plus side I realised today I’d been miscalculating something, and it turns out I can afford a more expensive flat than I thought. I’ve seen some nice ones but Michaela and I need to agree on a place. But I’ve just found a nice place and told her about it, so we’re going to try and arrange a viewing. Woo!
Reasons not to drink #1
September 6, 2009
So, you’re out drinking. You’re having fun, everything is fine – and then, unwillingly, you start to think of this one thing. A thing that’s in your mind every day, but lurking near the back. And now, fuelled by alcohol maybe, it rears its ugly head and you can’t ignore it any longer. But who do you talk to? Everyone is sick to death of you talking about it, and no one can really help. There is no one left to talk to. So what do you do? You keep on drinking.
In good news: I ordered a laptop the other night. It’s a Dell Inspiron – and of course, it’s pink. And with a matching pink cordless mouse. I can’t wait for it to come!
Woohoo, three day weekend!
August 30, 2009
Tomorrow’s bank holiday Monday and my office have mercifully given us a holiday for once. Yay! So far I’ve spent my time watching the Simpsons (as always), playing Zelda obsessively, eating too much and listening to the radio (it’s Beatles Bank Holiday on Radio 2 – no one should be missing a second of this! As I write this I’m listening to Johnnie Walker in conversation with Paul McCartney!)
So it might sound like I’m wasting time but mainly I’m enjoying the laziness of a Sunday that isn’t going to be followed by another day in a job I hate. Love it!
Also, I’ve been reading a biography of Walt Disney by Neal Gabler. I’m only a third of the way through (and it’s almost 700 pages long, so I have quite a bit to go) and I’m fascinated. I’ve always been a huge Disney fan, and I’ve become more and more interested in animation recently. When you watch documentaries on most Disney DVDs – like on Lady and the Tramp there’s an amazing Making Of feature – you will see animation historians talking. And I keep wondering, how do you even become an animation historian? I think it’s something I could do, something I’d love to do. Caragh thinks I should be a Simpsons animation historian. Which is basically a genius idea.
Speaking of Caragh, I’ve told her I think she should have some kind of column here. What with some of the crazy dreams she has it’d be hilarious! So here’s hoping she does.
Now I’m going to go back to playing Zelda and try and stop sneezing. Stupid cold…
Edit: Just remembered! I had the strangest dream last night that I won a competition (The answer I texted to the competition line was ‘love today’ but I can’t remember the question) and I got a phone call saying I’d won. The phone call was from Mika. I was so excited to be talking to Mika that I have no idea what I actually won. Probably signed merchandise or something. BUT the second part of my prize (if I could name, on the air, Mika’s new song. Which I did) was a shopping trip with Gok Wan. A bit of a strange link, but good! So Gok took me shopping and we went for lunch. And that was it. Insane…
“Don’t yearn for the past, look forward to the future”
August 26, 2009
September is approaching at an alarming rate (seriously, I swear they made months longer when I was younger) so it’s as good a time as any for a fresh start. To make more of an effort in certain parts of my life and to try to live by the above quotation – which won’t be easy. I think one of my biggest problems might be my nostalgic tendencies – it has to be said that I do tend to live in the past, which can make the past and present become confused. Then, of course, the present becomes a past I haven’t really lived. With all of that, I’m embracing assertiveness! At least, I’m trying to. At work I’ve always been a bit of a doormat, so it’s no wonder they think they can do what they like with me. Well, not anymore. I’m not putting up with their nonsense just because I’m shy.
My dream in life ever since I wrote my first story (which was way back in Primary School – Primary Four i think, if not sooner) has always been to have a book published. In Primary Five I wrote a short story about a girl who was shipwrecked on a magical island (that’s all the detail I can remember! Must dig that out…) and my teacher, Miss Harvey, insisted on reading it to the class. I was mortified, until I realised everyone actually liked it. When I left Primary School to go to High School, Miss Harvey wrote a note in my yearbook – “remember me when you’re famous!” And I will, whether I make it or not. Now I have two books published, and I’m doing little about it. I had planned on sending Little Vampire to Borders once it was published. Almost a month later and I haven’t done a thing. It’s a mixture of laziness and cowardice, to be perfectly honest. But I will do it.
Plus, I have the beginnings of an idea for a new novel. A historical novel, set in one of my favourite time periods – but that’s all I’ll say for now. There’s a lot of research to be done, so I’ll need to focus on that.
It’s just typical that when I decide all of this I come down with a bad cold and end up going to bed as soon as I go home from work each night. Murphy’s law. Here’s hoping it goes away soon and I can get to work – apart from anything else, I’m tired of having a sore red nose, and being all clogged up doesn’t really help with the assertiveness much.
Anyway, the good news of the day? Big Brother is finally going to end, after one more series! This will free up about 200 hours apparently, and the money will be used to make new dramas and ‘other programmes’. The latter strikes an ominous chord, since it could mean more reality TV. Still, at least it’s not Big Brother! No offence to any fans, I’m just sick of people getting famous for being on it. It’s too easy for people to become a celebrity these days.
Well, time for soup and bed!
Waiting
August 15, 2009
I am a princess of sorts, imprisoned in the highest tower. I work as I wait to be set free. For every princess in distress there is a knight in shining armour to rescue her. So I wait, as the dragon paces behind me. She breathes down my neck, hot and impatient.
Will he crash through the window and take me away? Perhaps he will fight his way past security and, swords clattering, he will take the stairs. The dragon won’t intimidate him at all – he will destroy her with ease. Then he will sweep me off my feet, take me in his arms and kiss me.
For now, though, the door remains locked. I suppose I should get back to my filing – the dragon just hates it when I start daydreaming.
Dreams: Ignorance is Bliss
August 12, 2009
I haven’t been dreaming much recently. I figured it was the stress of the day, tiring me into a disturbed and dreamless sleep. Then, after one particularly awful day at work, I dreamt of him. He turned up at my door – “surprise.” And of course I let him in and we talked. Since it was a dream, everything was perfect and comfortable. We both apologised for different things and that was it. Forgiven. Then, naturally, I woke up. For the entire day my mind was preoccupied. To be honest, I think about him nearly every day anyway, but this was different. A fogging of the mind, nothing made sense anymore. My head was stuck some three years in the past, and it was making the opposite choice over and over, even though it kills me to think about it.
It got me thinking about the power of dreams. I’ve had similar experiences before, generally the result of a nightmare though. Nightmares are evil and terrifying until you wake up, and sometimes they even stay with you for a few moments as you lie in bed, still gripped with illogical terror. Even once it fades, the rest of the day can seem different – a little bit off.
As I was dreaming, I was somehow conscious of the fact that I felt truly happy for the first time in quite a while. The euphoric feeling stuck with me only for seconds, then I could cling no longer and tumbled headlong into apathy. But the dream stuck with me all day – a niggling, unrealistic hope fluttering around my mind. In a way maybe that’s a good thing, to feel only a little hope rather than living in wait for something that isn’t likely to happen. I could still feel the dream, strangely vivid in my head – remembering everything from the pyjamas I was wearing (the pyjamas I actually had wore to bed that night) to the red coffee mug. I remember everything about how he looked, to the smallest and most painful detail: it’s easier when I don’t remember everything.
Still, in the past I’ve also had dreams that leave me inexplicably cheerful all day, long after my memory of the dream fades with no apathetic aftermath whatsoever. Although I had no idea what I dreamt, I still feel good. I’ve decided these dreams are the best kind. My dream felt all too real, too happy, too fairy-tale – so when I think about it now I feel myself sinking even lower because this is real life, and in this world he remains to be “the man that got away”. I’d love to have one of those silly forgettable dreams to lift my spirits tonight – after all, sometimes ignorance really is bliss.